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24 December 2024

Through Their Eyes... A Story Told Twice

This blog is my little world. A quiet space where I can write freely, away from the chaos. My escape when the world gets too noisy. It’s a place I come to when life feels toooooo much of a burden to handle. Honestly, not many people read this blog, and I kind of, in a weird way love that. It feels personal, like a secret journal or a diary. But I won’t lie, I do enjoy those compliments that pop up from time to time, so feel free to keep them coming!

Today, I’m trying something new: writing the same story from two perspectives. I’ve never done this before, and honestly, I don't know how successful this experiment will be. This story may feel completely out of place, or maybe it will appeal to the audience. The feeling is both exciting and a bit nerve-wracking. But that’s what this blog is for - experimenting, playing around with ideas, and just writing for the joy of it.

If you’ve found your way here, Thank you! I hope you enjoy the story below. Let me know what you think in the comments below, and if you feel like sharing the story, it would mean a lot to me. 😊

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                                                                           Aditi


It was a humid evening in Mumbai. The sky was soft and left a hazy greyish-silver cast over the city. Aditi found herself at Dadar station, trying to find her way out among the rushing crowd like a tiny pebble rolling in one place in the ever-moving tide. She hadn’t set foot in this city for years, not since she left for college in Hyderabad, She had dreamt of seeing the world and living in a place less chaotic, less noisy. And yet, here she was, drawn back to this city that held her by some unseen force, gently pulling at her heart.

Aditi closed her eyes and took a deep breath, letting the familiar scents of fried pakoras, salty sea air, and the mixed smell of sweat and fish fill her senses. It was a strange feeling, to return after so long. In college, her life had spun around endless classes, silent libraries, and the pressure of lectures and exams. And of course, there had been him - Arjun, the boy with dreams too big for any city, who talked of travelling the world, places to see - Tokyo, Seychelles, Istanbul, and building a life in Cities like - New York, Melbourne and London. He had spoken of Mumbai as if, it was a place to flee for a while, a starting point maybe, not a destination and definitely not home. And Aditi, young, shy and eager, believed him. She imagined herself with him, by his side, in faraway lands.

The ride to Marine Drive was filled with memories. She sat in the back of a Taxi, watching the streets fly by, the already blurred shops and buildings softened by the humid evening air. The Taxi cut through the streets, honking and dodging the crowd. Sometimes, the driver shouted at the people in his Bambaiya dialect to get aside, the driver’s hands going left to right and vice versa, manoeuvring through the maze of Mumbai’s streets with a skill only locals seemed to possess. As they neared the sea, a warm breeze swept through, carrying the saltiness of the ocean with it. She tilted her head up and out the window, letting the salty wind gently push back her hair as if welcoming her home.

Finally, she was here. The Queen’s Necklace stretched before her, each light along Marine Drive glowing like a golden bead on a delicate necklace, casting a soft, welcoming light on the water. She could hear the low murmur of waves meeting the shore, a sound as constant and reassuring as a heartbeat. For a moment, she simply stood there under the streetlights of Marine Drive; she felt the pull of the city; the sounds and smells of the city washed over her.

The sea was just as she remembered, its dark waters glistening under the city lights, the waves rolling forward and back, tireless but gentle. She thought back to her childhood, to evenings spent here with her mother, eating roasted corn while the rain danced on the pavement. She remembered the taste of the salty breeze, How her mother would tell her stories about the people they saw, imagining lives for them with a smile that made Aditi feel safe and connected. 

And now, Here she was, standing at the edge of that same sea, looking at what she had left behind. She kicked off her sandals and walked down to the water’s edge, ignoring the looks of people, Aditi stepped down, letting the cool water overlap her toes and the warm breeze sweep her hair back. It was as if the city, with all its wild beauty and its untamed spirit, was reaching out to welcome her back, whispering that it had waited, just as she had.

Aditi looked around, watching the couples sitting on the low stone wall, sharing quiet laughs, children running around with ice cream cones in hand, their faces glowing with joy. The air felt thick with nostalgia, memories blending with the present in a way that made her chest feel warm. She thought of Arjun then, how he had always told her that life was meant to be a grand adventure, that one day they would leave this city behind for places that felt like freedom. But somehow, standing there, with her feet wet and the city’s lights reflecting in her eyes, she felt that maybe freedom wasn’t a place. Perhaps it is a feeling, a quiet, steady assurance that you belong right where you are. 

She closed her eyes and let the sound of the waves fill her. Mumbai, in all its chaos, its noise, its relentless energy, had a way of knowing her better than she knew herself. This was the city where she had grown up, where she had loved, where she had learned to dream and to lose, and to dream again. A gentle smile curled on her lips and a lightness settled in her heart. 

As she opened her eyes, Aditi realized she didn’t need distant dreams or foreign cities to feel whole. What she needed was here, the rhythm of the waves, the warmth of the sea breeze, the steady hum of Mumbai’s heartbeat that felt so perfectly in tune with her own and the mixture of noise and silence that only Mumbai seemed to understand? Aditi realized she didn’t have to choose between worlds. Mumbai, with all its chaos, was still hers. As she turned to leave, she knew, with a smile lingering on her face, that next time, When she would return to this city, it would not be as a visitor, but as someone who knew that true love never left - it simply waited!



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                                                                             Arjun

It was a humid evening in Mumbai, The sky was soft and left a hazy greyish-silver cast over the city. Arjun found himself at Dadar station, trying to find his way out among the rushing crowd like a tiny pebble rolling in one place in the ever-moving tide. The city, her city, had drawn him back, its unseen pull stronger than the ache in his chest.

Years had passed, and Arjun had wandered far. He had roamed the world in search of something he couldn’t name. From the vibrant streets of Tokyo to the serene beaches of Seychelles and Istanbul's vibrant bazaars. But none of them had felt like home. The home, a feeling he had buried here, in this city where the air was thick with salt, sweat, blood and memories. 

He took a long breath as he stepped out of the station, and just as she had described, the scents of fried pakoras and the salty sea breeze mixed with the chaos of Mumbai embraced him. Each breath felt like a piece of her, wrapping around him, anchoring him in a way no other place ever did. The streets buzzed with life, and the humid air clung to his skin, but it was comforting like a familiar hand lightly brushing his skin.

The taxi ride to Marine Drive felt surreal, the city blurring past him as he stared out the window. He wanted to see Mumbai as she had, to find the beauty she had described so vividly, to honour her by soaking in every detail. With effortless skill, the driver cut through the maze of streets filled with crowds, at times shouting at them with his sharp Bambaiya dialect. As they neared the sea, a warm breeze swept through the taxi, carrying the saltiness of the ocean, and for a fleeting moment, he could almost hear her giggle and laugh.

When Arjun stepped onto Marine Drive, it was almost dark, and the Queen’s Necklace sparkled, its golden lights reflecting on the waves below. Arjun walked slowly, his footsteps unhurried, as if time itself had paused to allow him this moment to reflect. The soft glow of the streetlights reflected off the water, shimmering like the fragments of his memories. He stood there silently, letting the sounds of the city, the waves, the distant hum of traffic, and the laughter of strangers wrap around him like an embrace.

The sea looked just as she had described it to him, dark and vast, yet familiar and warm. He slipped off his shoes and walked to the water's edge, letting the cool waves lap against his feet. For a moment, he closed his eyes and imagined her standing beside him, the wind catching her hair as she smiled at the horizon. 

Looking around, he saw the familiar scene she had once painted with words, couples leaning on the stone wall, children chasing dreams under streetlights, and strangers lost in thought. He smiled reluctantly, and with it, the weight in his chest slowly shifted. This was the city she had loved so deeply, not for its chaos, but for the moments of stillness it held within its noise. He remembered her words about freedom, She had said once with a thoughtful twinkle in her eyes, "Ajju! Freedom is not a place, it is a feeling." Aditi had found hers here, in the city’s rhythm, in the wild beauty of its imperfections. And now, standing at the same edge of the world she had once loved, Arjun began to understand.  

As the night deepened, Arjun closed his eyes. The waves seemed to whisper, their rhythm echoing her presence everywhere - in the salt, in the air, the warmth of the breeze, and the steady heartbeat of Mumbai itself. Mumbai was hers, and now, in some unspoken way, it had become his too. It wasn’t just a city, it was a memory, a promise, a heartbeat that matched his own. For the first time in years, Arjun felt a quiet calm settle over him as if the waves crashing on the shore were themselves whispering, "She never left. She’s here, in the sea, in the breeze, in you."

As he turned to leave,  the truth hit him - Aditi was gone... She would never return to these shores, never feel the sea breeze against her skin again. But in this city, she lived on, in every corner, every wave, and every breath of the salty air. For Arjun, she wasn’t just a memory, she was the soul of Mumbai, and in honouring her, he had found a way to keep her alive in his heart forever...

08 December 2024

Messy, Beautiful, Chaotic Now!

 ...And..

So here I am, pouring out my chaos onto this blank space, trying to make sense of the storm in my mind, or maybe just trying to survive it... It feels strange, doesn’t it? How something as simple as words can feel both like a release and a weight, all at once. I often wonder if everyone feels this way, I wonder if we’re all walking around carrying invisible storms, pretending like the sky isn’t falling apart inside us, keeping our masks so firmly in place that we’ve forgotten what it’s like to let them slip.

When I started this blog, I thought writing would bring clarity, a way to declutter the mess in my head. I thought talking about mental health might help someone else feel less alone, and maybe it has, but here’s the truth: there are days when I can’t even figure out if I’ve helped myself. Sharing my thoughts, my fears, my anxieties, sometimes it feels brave, but other times, it feels like I’m peeling back layers I didn’t even know I had, leaving myself bare. Vulnerability is a strange thing, it’s terrifying and freeing at the same time.

But you know what’s even stranger? Silence. The kind of silence that sneaks in when you’re surrounded by people who think they know you but don’t. The kind of silence that fills a room when you’re screaming inside but can’t bring yourself to say a word. I used to think that silence was my safe space. Now, I’m not so sure. Writing has become my bridge, my way of breaking that silence, even if it’s just with myself.

There’s something poetic, almost tragic, about how I can write pages upon pages when my mind is a tangled mess, but when I’m happy, truly happy, the words just vanish. Does that mean happiness makes us complacent? Or does it mean chaos is what drives us to create, to express, to make sense of it all? Maybe that’s why I’m writing this now, because my thoughts are so tangled and loud that the only way to quiet them is to pour them out here, in front of you, in front of whoever happens to stumble upon this.

But I really have to ask: why are you still reading this? What is it that brought you here or kept you gripped to these words, to this space where I’m baring pieces of myself that even I don’t fully understand? Is it curiosity? Empathy? Or is it that you see a bit of yourself in this mess? Maybe you’ve felt the same storm I’m talking about. Maybe you’ve carried it, hidden it, fought it, and lost to it more times than you can count.

The thing is, I don’t have answers for you. I don’t have a neat little lesson to tie up this post with a pretty bow. All I have are questions, questions for myself, for you, for anyone who’s ever felt like their mind was running too fast for their heart to catch up. When was the last time you stopped to acknowledge the chaos inside you? Not to fix it or suppress it, but to truly listen to it? When was the last time you let yourself feel everything without guilt or shame, without trying to convince yourself that you’re “fine”?

Because here’s what I’m learning, sometimes, it’s not about fixing the chaos. Sometimes, it’s about making space for it, about letting it sit beside you and whisper its truths. And sometimes, it’s about sharing it, even when it scares you, even when you don’t know where the words will take you.

So, I’ll leave you with this thought, what if the storm isn’t something to fear but something to understand? What if the chaos in your mind is just a reflection of the parts of you that need the most attention, the most care? And if that’s true, when will you stop running from it and start listening to it?

Because if you’re waiting for the perfect moment to face yourself, to face your thoughts, here’s a little secret, there’s no such thing as a perfect moment. There’s only now, this moment, this messy, beautiful, chaotic now. The question is, what will you do with it?