A jump out of life - Original poem

 

A jump out of life - This is the Original poem I wrote a long time back. I don't know why I never posted this poem here directly instead I edited this poem into a story and posted that, I'm not sure what was going on in my mind then, but I feel I finally have the courage to post this poem here now. My writing has always been a little, maybe a lot on the darker side of this realm, it's not that I don't want to write about the joys in life, but every time I think of a cute little chubby blobby blob of jello, somehow the blobby blob immediately morphs into a dingy grimy cataclysmic blob of insanity, I don't even know what why but nevertheless, maybe that's why I have this blog, I come here mainly to just shed away the ill-lit side of my being! 
Okay, enough of my blabbering - Please read the poem below and let me know how dark and sad it was! I know for a fact that not everyone is going to like it but well, the below creation is just a tiny part of the esse of my entity.


Poem: A jump out of life.

I stood barefoot on the concrete balustrade
The whole city was twinkling yellow and white
My hair flowed in the breeze
The wind pushing against me
I could feel my legs shaking
I could feel my heart racing
I trembled to the core,
as I stood on the concrete so cold
I looked over the edge,
I could see the streets decorated
People walking by, so tiny, so insignificant
Tears ran down my cheeks,
The cold wind with tears felt like needles piercing
Then I took a deep breath, turned around,
And THUD! I fell.

I saw the sky on my way

And I heard the Ravens screech

The twinkling stars up above

As if floating in a dark sea

Voices echoed far away

Some of them familiar

The serenity I always wished for

Now seemed too much to bear

I saw that kid on the window sill,

and his confused little face

and the girl in another window,

looked mature for her age

the tears in my eyes floated in the air

as well as my dress that wrapped around my legs

Quickly the voices in my ears crescendoed

the reason for this step seemed long lost,

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath,

as if now that was going to help.